April 20, 2003



Hmm..it's been like a month I've posted on here, did India losing the world cup really affect me that nadly??? Naaaah! Not a chance in hell! Infact they're playing a final today *yawn*

The past one month has been crazy, admits from colleges, the usual emotional roller coaster, feel like a misguided youth. It's amazing how many opportunities to "do things" I've passed up in the past year and half, jobs, admissions at institutes..you name it. Now when I have a chance at pursuing what I would consider the King of dreams, I'm not so convinced I wanna be doing that either ;((( Things are worse by the fact that I don't have friends to discuss my problem with, we're this small tightly knit family, every1 has had enough of every1 and yet we're together and it seems just weird to have to be the one to leave, uncertain about the future and what surprises it may bring. Maybe all this nerve wracking thinking will help in some way. maybe other problems won't start seeming so grossly complicated. Well, thats in the future, as of now I'm not really going anywhere with my brains and emotions playing hide n seek with me.

Here's hoping someone can come up with a standing decision on my future, this really really sucks.


Posted by me on Sunday, April 20, 2003