May 08, 2003



From time to time I look at my cat and wonder. We've had him for 8 years and a bit now, he's been pretty central to all our lives and he's mad us happy, sad, anxious, angry...everything, he's a sweet n sour ball of fur and we love him. It's always something to look at the peace and calm on his face when he's sleeping without a care in the world, it's us, the humans who have all the trouble. He has a calming influence on us and dare I say a bonding influence as well.

I was all confused about my future the last time I posted on here, I still am. The bit in between was pretty good, I took my mind off things and some of the options I didn't consider last time seemed pretty good and vice-versa. My brain is going crazy and I don't know whats goin to come of it in the end.

Went for a job interview a couple of weeks ago and got rejeccted for it. I have to try to stop that from affecting me mentally. It is, as much as I look like a strong willed rock of a person, I'm not really like that inside at all. I tend to get affected by peoples comments, their views of me things like that.

Not much else to say, still struggling with body fat! LOL I'll never get around to jogging regularly or jimming, or learning to drive, or get an education, or get a career, or have a family, or be married....


Posted by me on Thursday, May 08, 2003