August 30, 2003

The Shortest attention span ever!

Boy oh boy! I must have the shortest attention span EVER! I can finally unravel the mystery to my unfilfilled potential. Actually it's never been such a big mystery. I've forever been told by teachers at school, YOU can achieve a LOT if you put your mind to things, sadly for my attention deficit disorder, I've never been able to put my head down to something and keep it there for more than a few hours. Come to think of it, the reason I've been that way could be because I had glasses at a very young age, around 5 and from that time I could never read or write for more than half an hour because I would start getting headaches and I guess the habit of quitting in half an hour stuck :( Quite sad actually, considering I stopped wearing glasses 3 years ago. But old habits die hard. Somehow the fact that IF ( and that is a HUGE if) I put my mind down to something..anything..I could do it right and do it great is comforting. What triggered off this sudden introspection about my attention span and everything? Well, the fact that I've been turned off (by) my my books for almost a week now, I felt burnt out half way through the week and when I finally get down to some studying, BANG! My ADD hits me like a brick wall!

My good friend from college finally called me last night. How superstitious and downright mean do you have to be to tell your friend you're leaving for England like 4 days before you actually leave? Pretty damn mean. And thats something I realised a couple of years ago. It tainted our friendship but then it was hardly ever built on actualy "friendship", more like an alliance! Anyways, I'm kinda glad to see his sorry ass fly off to England, cos his first preference was the US and the visa officers recognize an asshole when they see one and so he didn't land up there! Hardly anyone gets to "settle down" in the UK and it's sad when people try to land up there with that very motive, only to be so rudely surprised at the end.

I'm off to eat my yummy chicken rice now, bloody hungry already!


Posted by me on Saturday, August 30, 2003

August 29, 2003

This is my Baambay!

I thought I should put in an entry on the day of the bomb blasts, just to sort of commemorate the occasion or something. Basically an excuse to blog. But I resisted the temptation (yeah right!). Anyways, finally got down to enetering some nonsense today so lets see how this goes.

I was called up by 3 friends today. This was very unusual, considering I've literally been in hiding for almost over a year now. I've cut off diplomatic and other ties with non-essential acquaintances a long while ago, and recently I've severed ties with many of my close friends too. We don't get to hear much of each other's lives, we're in the dark about what everyone else is doing, which suits me fucking fine. Like I've said before, I can do without being surrounded by imbecillical morons for a while. I'm not complaining! Anyways, so one of my friends calls me for a get together at some sleazy ass bar, I knew right from the start I didn't wanna go, but I said yes and then ditched in the last minute. Bah! Nasty me!

So much has been written and said about the bombay blasts, I'm not contribute to all that and clog up cyberspace. but I will say this, I haven't felt this unsafe ever before in Bombay. I mean, it's probably just 5% less safer and thats what you feel but really, as of now, you keep thinking there could be a bomb in the bus in the train in the cab, guess it's just a matter of time before we get used to everything and things get back to normal.


Posted by me on Friday, August 29, 2003

August 24, 2003

Assholes and Spam!

I called up an old friend the other day and came to realise something. When you don't keep in touch for a while with your friends, something mysterious happens to them, maybe they change, maybe you change?? Somebody, well something for sure changes and things just aren't the same. I got a cold, eerie feeling from my friend. I wanna write it off as a momentary thing but I'm sure thats not what it is, and I've had enough of friends turning assholes in no time. I've just realised that friends are wayy overestimated and you can do without them, especially if you have friends like mine.

I was being spammed royally the past 3-4 days. I normally had about 98% of my mailbox full for over the past one year and now suddenly I was going to 150-180%!! It was crazy and I didn't know what to do! Well, actually I knew well what to do, the obvious thing..delete the old e-mails..Duhhh! But i didn't want to :(( So many old e-mails so many memories, I decided I'm gonna open them all e-mails and save them in a text file on my PC, no matter how painful; that was going to be! 10 e-mails into the process I was like..hold on..why am I saving all this crap? It doesn't mean very much to me now at all and in case I should be moving on and looking forward and not back to e-mails from the year 2000! So I deleted almost 200 e-mails and in the end I felt BLOODY GOOD!!! I felt like I've deleted a part of my life, an unnecessary part and I feel good about it. Maybe I should clean out my drawers and cupboard and everything and look to fill em up again ;)

Watched India kick Pakistans ass in the hockey match yesterday. To be honest it was one of the very few hockey matches I've ever seen. We were all enjoying it, loved it when we got the lead and the Pakis were fuming and this one Indian player hits a Paki player in the mouth and then this whole lafda started on the pitch!! It kinda made me sad also, just goes to show how deep the hatred between India and Pakistan is, we're gonna be this way for many years to come. Thats why I wanna see more India V Pakistan cricket matches dammit!

Keeping up, slightly, with the fitness regimen. Looking and feeling good, almost. LOL. I crack me up!!!


Posted by me on Sunday, August 24, 2003

August 19, 2003

Munches and Stomach Crunches

I was feeling fat today. So I decided to do something about it. Like I have many times in the past. Now, some may be surpprised that a guy has days when he feels "fat", just like a woman. Maybe it's a ego thing or something but guys don't wanna talk about their "fat" days. Well, I don't mind talking about it at all. I've been having them quite frequently of late actually. In the past I've cut down on all the fatty foods, jogged, walked, did stomach crunches, everything. After feeling good, doing all that exercise for say about 2 weeks, I start feeling, don't really know about looking, good and thats when evil me shows up and starts splurging on all the fatty dangerous foods! Having been the physical type all my life, the past few years have been mighty depressing for me. No cricket in a good two years, no other sports for me :( Sometimes I wanna get outta the house, hit the roads and jog to the end of the city and I know I'll feel awsome at the end of it! Anyways, today I did a few stomach crunches, sweated it out and I already feel my stomach is back to the shape it should be (I know for a fact it's not :) but a few more days like this and I will start noticing real effects.

I've picked up the pace on my studying in the past couple of days. I'm feeling good and confident. Hope to carry this momentum on to the exam. There's still lots more to cover, hope to do them through the rest of this month and all through September.

I'm just not getting around to buying the Michelle Branch album I've been wanting to for weeks now. I think I'm just being a lazy arse considering Planet M is just a stone's throw away from me. Maybe it's got something to do with the fact that I never have the money to buy the damn album! Ugghh, I really need to start keeping some good amount of money with myself!




Posted by me on Tuesday, August 19, 2003

August 17, 2003

Indian Lesbians and everything

My parent's have lately started watching all the serials on the 3 Bengali channels we get on TV. They're kind of different from the mainstream Hindi serial stuff we see on the other channels. Ofcourse, Kolkata being ht intellectual capital and everything seems to want to prove this point through the many serials it produces. Now, we saw some news a few months ago that Kolkata had it's firt Gay and Lesbian parade! That was kinda shocking, I always thought that people in Kolkata wouldn't take to people being gay and all very nicely but apparently their wayy cool with that. Thats fine, so the people there have very open minds. Unlike the rest of the coubtry. What we saw on TV yesterday blew our minds! There was this one serial and it started off with this boyish girl saving another girl from the clutches of road side romeos that are oh so popular in Kolkata. Anyways, so the girls acting all manly and stuff and dressed up that way too, I think to myself, gee thats like lesbian dressing, anywehere else in the world they'd think that for sure but in India she'd get away with it cos how many people are Lesbian anyway???? Anyways, turns out that the chick is a lesbian, she goes home to her....err.partner? Girlfriend??...whatever and starts kissing her passionately and there's a lot of groping going on, it was bizarre and yucky. And it wasn't gonna end anytime soon. lol Soon she's on the bed with this other girl and they're making out bigtime, we could hardly believe what we were seeing. I and my brother start laughing out loudly, my mom joins in soon, my dad's face is turning red and we change the channels and this goes on for a good 8-10 minutes! Quite an eye opener. There was so much controversy over the movie "Fire" and here we had these two lesbians in a love making relay and no one flinched! Honestly, it seemed all too wannabe and I can't imagine what they'll come up with next, but if it's two guys kissing, I'm gonna get the station burnt down! lol

Haven't gone to my classes in a weeks time!! They call up to tell me I have 6 hours tomorrow!!! Ughh. Don't know whether I'll attend all 6 though. Need to revv up my quant skills real soon. Just saw some pretty neat material today and it's kinda given me the impetus to study harder and faster now. Hope I don't trip along the way! I need long hours of gruelling math practice and that should hold me in good stead for the entrance tests.

Found out a good friend of ours landed a job in good o'l Dubai yesterday. Whenever we hear the word Dubai we get excited, emotional, teary eyed almost. lol We call ourselves half-arabs, having lived in the middle east half of our lives. Maybe we'll visit one day soon? God only knows..

Time to go for our walk. Looks like a nice cool day actually. The beach is full of people on Sundays and it gets real ugly so we walk elsewhere today!


Posted by me on Sunday, August 17, 2003

August 15, 2003

Independence Day

I'm writing this on the morning of August 15th. We woke up a bit early and everyone started wondering why the tape with all the "Patriotic Songs" wasn't playing downstairs, at this restaurant where they've been keeping up the tradition for atleast the 13 years that I've live over here. Well, they did eventually start playing it, with the same old annoying songs. Sometimes we think we should buy them a new tape they can start playing, but hey, it's become tradition now and we almost kind of look forward to being disturbed early in the morning on August 15, and January 26th, republic day!

Just heard on the news that the north east of the USA has had a major power outage. MAJOR. Funny, how we thought these kinda things happened only in our country :) It's funny to see the Empire state building and other big buildings in stark darkness! It looks kinda scary actually. They say Detroit could have to wait for a few days till they get power back, whoa, sounds crazy, whenever we have power outages here we seem to get back power in a few hours but these guys have it real bad it seems.

Well, we're in the middle of August now already, I seem to be losing track of how many people I know who're leaving the country to study abroad. I've got people from my batch at college going all over the world, Germany, New Zealand, Australia, UK and ofcourse the US! I feel kinda sad when I see friends leave, I guess it's the feeling of not knowing when we'll next see them more than anything else, if ever at all! Guess, this is what makes reunions even more sweeter!


Posted by me on Friday, August 15, 2003

August 13, 2003

Feeling numb

Our family appreciates good food. Real good food, and good quantities of it too. I and my brother pride ourselves on being able to eat a lot. Something we noticed on our dinners with friends where we could just go on eating and our skinny little vegetarian friends would start panting in 10 minutes flat. We're not like that, we pace ourselves, chew the food like we're making love to it and enjoy every single morsel on our plates, and so we end up eating lots!

We eat good food at home, I think my mom is a super cook and we have very high standards and are highly critical of what we eat. Having said that we're adventurous and unlike many people I know, we're not very picky about what we eat either. I think it's a state of mind more than anything else, I hope this appreciation of food actually helps me in some way in the future, maybe opening up a restaurant or something in the future, we talk a lot about this actually! Today we went hunting for good biryani, the hungry four were in a mood for some biryani, we found ourselves at a konkani seafood place, not the best place to look for Chicken Biryani, I know. But we weren't too disappointed with what we got in the end, don't think we'll be returning anytime soon though.

Just discovered that Mars is visible near the moon tonight. It looks awsome! I've never been the one to gaze at celestial things and ogle at them with wonder but I think I'm going to go back and have a good long look at this baby. God knows when we might see it again, if ever!

I need to start running at the "running track" near my place. Not really a running track as much as a Dirt track, well more like a cricket field with a dusty outfield. As long as I can run on it and lose some calories, I'm not complaining. It's bad enough not having enough parks n stuff in Bombay so we have to make do with whatever little place we can find to run around and stuff. When I actually get down to the actual running?? God knows, I'm hoping soon, but this depends on my state of mind and stuff. Should be interesting though.


Posted by me on Wednesday, August 13, 2003

August 12, 2003

Back to Blogging Day!

Phew! After playing around with this site for days I think I've finally straightened things out and this blog looks like what I visualised it to be. I like the colours, it reflects my personality, I feel comfortable on here and hopefully blogger won't screw things up for me (again) and put me off blogging for another six months!

Anyways, here's hoping this fresh start gives me the impetus to carry on..forever! It's been a little over 3 months I last posted on here and things seem to have changed a lot. Lot more people blogging for one! It's funny how I used to "blog" manually, it was painful but I had the right idea and I'm glad I have posts that are over 2 years old, feel like I've changed over the past 2 years, my brain certainly has.

Okay, so whats going on with me today?? Nothing much so far, my brother has gone off to a court marriage of his friend, he's only 25 and works at a Call centre here in Bombay and he's all comitted to a life of slavery now, funny thing is his marriage is a total filmi affair, nor his or his fiancee's/wife's parents know about this thing!!! I've never known anyone to do anything crazy like this, to me it seems like a huge risk, if it pays off great for him if it doesn't, well then he'll have to face all the "I told you so's" and that is not a very enviable position.

It's about lunch time and my stomach is letting me know that. Haven't had much for breakfast actually. Guess I'll get off here and see whats there to eat!

Before I sign off though, I'd like to say a Hi to everyone who'll be visiting my blog, this is pretty much the "Official" launch of my blog, my last dozen entries or so were kept to myself, I was that insecure of letting people know about my life but now I'm an open book and I'm looking forward to sharing my life's experiences with everyone and along the way document the funny, bizarre, sad, ironical happenings in my life. Enjoy!


Posted by me on Tuesday, August 12, 2003